about a love that didn't last.

And if we were really meant to be,
then we'd justify destiny.
No, we didn't die,
We just never had a chance to grow..



...this is a pretty long post xD

I probably should begin on my English homework. Which is to write a poem on "Who I Am" using cut-out words from a newspaper. So I went back and looked at the poetry about "Where I'm From", rather than "Who I Am", for some inspiration. It was something I wrote in 8th grade, our whole class did, for a project. We were supposed to base our poems on this.
And I kind of like mine :D


I am from the Big Apple;
From Broadway to the Albany suburbs.
I am from the blooming gardens of Spring
(Tiger lilies and pansies,
And Japanese maple trees).
I am from the painted hand-made tree house;
Piles of litter from the birthday food fight
In which resided the endless spiraling slide.
Up we’d slither, slipping, slowed by perspiration.

I'm from karaoke and pool tables,
From burning wasabi mistaken for ice cream.
I'm from the games of hide-and-go-seek,
And the beer disguised as ginger-ale,
From motor mouth and butter fingers;
I'm from spending buckets on your children;
Spoiled brats with brand-name clothing,
Parties with over three-hundred guests.

I'm from Brainstorm and Etec,
Crispy egg rolls and steaming dumplings;
From the fortune my grandmother lost
To Atlantic City’s slots,
The photographs hidden, to deny the truth.

There does exist wasted pages;
Attempts of recording the past,
Streaming memories I forgot,
Beaming blasts of my childhood.
I am from those moments—
Home videos and photographs--
Lies that broke branches of my family tree.


Perhaps an explanation would be nice? [in case you don't know me very well] I lived in New York for exactly eleven years of my life [exactly eleven, because I moved on my birthday]. My mom had the most beautiful garden anyone had ever seen for miles, which she tended until it was nearly of fame [or, at least to the neighbors xD].
My dad built me a tree house with his own hands. It was yellow, because yellow used to be my favorite color. I had my [I think] 8th birthday party in my backyard, It was Halloween themed, so my mom made a graveyard cake and bat-decorated cupcakes and bought "bug juice" [aka, fruit punch]. We all decided to throw our food everywhere, so many people went home with icing in their hair and juice spilled down their shirts. My back yard was flooded with litter for years, since we were always too lazy to clean up. My tree house also had a yellow spiraling slide, which we'd always attempt to climb up, rather than slide down [definitely much more fun].
When I was little, I used to always get up on tables and dance and sing for everyone.
I bet you can't imagine that, huh?
And I used to be pretty beast at pool at a young age [not anymore, though]. Maybe this is because I was playing with other little kids? xD
Once when I was very young, maybe like 5 or 6, I saw a scoop of wasabi and thought it was green tea ice cream [I've always loved green tea ice cream], so I ate a whole spoonful [we were at a really fancy sushi restaurant with like 20 of my parents' friends], and about choked to death because none of the adults paid any notice to me and I didn't have a drink.
My mom and dad used to through extremely extravagant parties, because I used to live in quite a large house. In fact, I think I have a picture..

there. Anyway, and when we weren't throwing our own parties, other people were throwing parties we went to, until like 3 AM. And once I saw a soda can, and I thought it was ginger-ale [for some reason...], but then it turned out to be like, vodka and it burned my throat, since I took a large gulp, and I was still quite small xD
My parents always used to call me motor-mouth and butter-fingers when I was younger, because I talked non-stop, and I still love talking, but not as much, or at least, not in public...I do at home, though. And butter fingers because as you probably know, I'm about the clumsiest person I know, and very, very, INCREDIBLY unsuave. ...and well, if you didn't know that, you really don't know me at all O_O
So yeah, my family also used to be really rich and spend a ton of money on useless items, including parties filled with hundreds of people and such I explained in the poem..
Our money came from two companies my father owned, called Brainstorm and Etec, they were computer repair and manufacturing companies, I THINK. But now he's just a computer professor.
And then I mention the egg rolls and dumplings because my mom is seriously the best cook. The best cook I know, at least. I was always blessed with amazing food. She was known for her cooking, and is probably the reason I'm good at baking! Ahh, orgasmic >:D
And then my grandmother lost thousands to her gambling addiction..because she was where a majority of our cash came from too, she's owned two successful restaurants and three nail salons...but then she gambled away all her money, and all the money borrowed from her children too...which is why I'm now living in a small town house in the small town of Fairfax attending the small school of Falls Church. xD
Hidden photographs are the ones that my mom and dad have never had, there's only photos of me. Not even many of my brother or anyone else in my family. But basically four or five thick photo albums dedicated entirely to me. Just endless photos of me. -_-
Lastly, "lies that broke branches of my family tree" refers to the fact that my dad cheated on my mom for four years, and then left us. This is another reason why we don't have as much money now. He's still pretty rich. I mean, he paid $140 per person for the four of us [him, his girlfriend, me, my brother] to see the Beatles Cirque Du Soleil Show in Las Vegas. xD This is HIS house, in Texas:

Yay for big houses. :P
So yeah. That was a brief explanation of my life in New York, I suppose~
WANNA SEE PICTURES?!
I like showing people pictures of little me xD
My mom liked the short hair [I didn't]...-_-

That's my dad, in the second photo.

Anyway!
Calvin Lin Trend: I got my four front teeth pulled out when I was two, because my mom fed me too much sugary foods which caused major cavities. So I was without them for years. -_- [I don't know if anyone already knew that, but if you did, I'm sure I mentioned SOMETHING earlier that you didn't.]



Light and Day - The Polyphonic Spree
^this song was in Scrubs, and in Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind [which I have to rewatch, because I didn't understand it the first time- I was young.] The band's pretty interesting :]