drop a heart, break a name.

Am I more than you bargained for yet?
I've been dying to tell you anything you want to hear,
Cause that's just who I am this week.




My mother and I were talking about dreams in the car.
She told me how she had a dream that our house was standing on four posts, upon a island of sand, when suddenly two posts of opposite corners break apart and our hourse begins to wobble. She went to a dream evaluator, and he told him that it meant our family's economy was to fall, but once it landed on the sand, it would be sturdy. My mom is very superstituous, so this is why lately she's been cutting me short on money.
I told her that my dreams were close to impossible to analyze, and she said that it was probably possible.

So for the heck of needing to blog, and possibly if Tiff wants to help me figure it out? Here's a brief summary of the dream I had last night, which I've already told Samantha.

Do any of you remember Jessica Smith? She was this blonde girl who went to Luther Jackson and now goes to Oakton? She was obsessed with like unidragons or something? xD
Well, for some reason, I end up staying at her house for the weekend, and apparently everyone in her family except her is British? And she lost a lot of weight.
I'm sitting on the couch with the father of the family, and suddenly the evil dude from Anastasia, what's his name, Ratsputin? He comes in and decides he's gonna take over the world, and then the British family decides they'll join in on his plan and now they're all evil, and I don't know what to do.

As a result of this, I make some spaghetti and some ravioli, both of which contain some poisonous mushrooms. The father offers Ratsputin something to eat, and I makes me choose which one he should have. I choose the ravioli because I made it second, and 2 is closer to 3, which is my favorite number. [This is how I often choose things, based on the number 3]

He eats it, dies, but then somehow revives?

Then the dream skips to a party [or at least, that's all I remember], where I serve the spaghetti in a large dish with all the caterer's food. The guests begin to take bowls of spaghetti, and so does Ratsputin, and he dies a final time once he eats it. The downside to this was that all of the other people died too, one of which was Samantha.

Samantha revives as well, and one day she comes back with me to the house of the English people [who are no longer evil], and while I'm in the bathroom, she tries a bit of my ravioli, and dies again.

Somehow, she revives a second time, and we go to the mall. All of the mall's walls are white, with incredibly realistic, detailed, shaded drawings of buildings and fish and other random objects. One of the sections is empty, and here I decide to draw a large house with a dock leading out the ocean. Samantha tells me I drew it too lightly, but I disagree. Later, I look at it from afar and realize that she was right, and I can barely see it.

We have a car? And Jared takes it and somehow makes it have hydraulics, and he's bouncing across the parking lot. It's late at night and it's empty, so he starts speeding, at like a hundred miles per hour, so fast that as we're in the car, we're pushed all the way back to the trunk when the car begins to move (Newton's law? Anything in motion will stay in motion and anything still will stay still?) and when the car stops, we slide all the way back up to the front.

Random tidbit right there, but then we're back in the mall, and Sam, Earvin, Liz and I decide to go out for lunch at a seafood restaurant, and we order our drinks, and after we order our food, before it comes to the table, we NOW decide to look for money in our bags and pockets, but have only change. We attempt putting our change together, but find we can't even afford one meal. I don't understand this part, but Sam somehow folds the coins over in her hands a couple of times and this results in a hundred dollar bill. In reluctancy to break it, we dip anyway.

Then I'm alone, and I go to one of those stores that are like a Claire's? Or Libby Lu or whatever? And I'm sitting down when Bano comes out of nowhere, and gives me one of those tacky country door hangings made of wood. Do you know what I'm talking about? Like one of these. But instead, there are two of the wooden plates, connected by that straw rope-like stuff you see it hangin from in that picture. The bottom block says "Erin" and the top is drawn on with inside jokes such as numbers and random phrases that make no sense to me. Bano says, "An early birthday present!" and walks away. I think to myself that my birthday has already passed, until I realize that it's a gift for Erin, whose birthday is December 5th. Why Bano gave it to me, I have no idea. What revelance this has to anything, I don't know either.

I leave the store and find Sam again, and we go to the Apple Store, where this guy who was in the Haunted House, Eric Holl works. After I see him, I wake up.

It was just SO random. What the hell?

Jessica Smith? Jared Smith? Bano Irfan? Eric Holl? SOO RANDOM.

My dreams aren't possible to decode, in my opinion. I've had dreams in which...

-I'm trapped in Pho 50, on a snowy day in July, and Daniel tries to escape, and therefore killed. Mr. Mbatchou happens to be there too, and is threatened to be turned into a punching bag, so he makes two clones of himself, one of which sacrifices their lives for his sake, and the other stuffs the original Mbatchou into his back pocket.

-Vincent is having sex with some blonde girl in Samantha's bathroom, and then Amy comes in and starts throwing peaches and apples at him.

-I'm staying at a hotel where there is a murdered old lady on the floor of my suite, and Alex Harper is the main chef. Alex and I make out? And then I go to school, where Sam and Tyler run out of the gym locker room naked and to the mall, putting on clothes on the way. I go back to the hotel, where Alex is all, "Sorry, but I'm going out with Amber [who is his sister?!]", but he has his arm around a large man, while they're sitting on a cart which is part of an indoor roller coaster of the hotel.

-Samantha's dad owns a department store, like Sam's or Costco or BJ's? And there he sells cereal that is flavored like Cobalt 5 gum. You know, peppermint? Peppermint flavored cereal. And I'm trying to sleep on Sam's couch, when her and Kevin come in from each side, singing "If You Want to Sing Out" by Cat Stevens. I buy some cereal, and then I'm trying to turn on the light, to find a bowl and milk. I find that one of the light switches turns on a light bulb which is held by a hand potruding out a hole in the wall, and Sam says, "Oh, that's just Betty."

-Ian and Kesiree or making out in the basement of Luther Jackson, rolling around on the ground knocking over empty cereal boxes which Ian had previously set up in a spiral formation. And then I change in front of my math teacher [who is an old woman, wtf?]

I've told you many times that I'm tired of these dreams.

What does it mean if Sam dies three times? It scares me to know.

On the other hand, I finally learned how to play thirteen from Tom, Vincent and Sam. ICY! [which stands for "insert calvin yay", and most of you have probably heard calvin exclaim, "yay" in that low voice of his while clapping? haha.]

And my throat hurts a lot from the haunted house, plus other things :(

Calvin Lin Trend: I never unzip my pants when I take them off or put them on, with an exception of like two. Most of mine are too big for me xD