you have always been my inspiration.

Hold your head up, you silly girl.
Look what you've done...
When you find yourself in the thick of it,
help yourself to a bit of what is all around you.




So, I look at Tiffany's blog, and I am inspired. I think to myself:
How amazing it is of her to be so open, to allow everyone to read what she has to say, to know about the things which occur in her life. How brave. How great, not to care what people will think, not to worry or shut others out.
To keep everything in suddenly seems like the worst thing you could do.
Then, I look at Anna's blog, and I think:
Maybe it's terrible of me to put so much of my emotion into my blog. Maybe, it's bad to bring these things up. Maybe it's better to be secretive, and not let the world in. Maybe, trusting too many people is a mistake on my part.
Or at least, so far, it has proved to be so.

What to do? This is always a problem with me..telling others things such as feelings and particular events makes me feel like an attention whore. Who says they want to know? But when I keep everything in, I wonder if it's better to let everything out. To not give a shit of what people will say. What will run through their minds, or how they might see you differently.

Would you see me differently?

And how do you see me right now?





Australia - The Shins
^The lyrics to this song take a lot of thinking. Some still don't make sense to me.

That was another reason I deleted my blog last time;
Do I really want so many people to have access to this?