so, can you get me out of here?

I'm playing the role
Of a happy girl, but no one knows
Inside I'm alone,
But I would never let it show.



I only post blogs for calvin!
As in, if he didn't exist, I'd totally delete this. [but save all I've written first!]
Or at least I wouldn't post so many blogs.
But he does exist, so I don't delete this. And therefore, I haven't written in my journal in AGES.
Though I should!
-_-

Well, Kevin also tells me to update sometimes, too xD

Lately I've gotten way too moody and worked up over things that I shouldn't. Not PMS, thank you very much. I rarely get my period anymore. It's rather unhealthy, I think. -____- Then again, judging by all my symptoms, one would assume I'm pretty unhealthy. I mean, I think so. But I drink so much tea and don't eat meat and never use medicine and hate things that are too sweet and prevent myself from eating candy other than gum! ;_;
Shouldn't I be healthy?!
Anyway, about the moody thing. I keep getting stressed and loud for no reason, and I just ALWAYS do that, and I get so mad at myself for it [which sucks, because I'm basically just getting frustrated over being frustrated].
So, my new goal for this year: MELLOW OUT.

I love doing favors for people :]
It makes me feel great.
Also, if you didn't read my profile, my favorite feeling is that I get when I know I've given a good recommendation/suggestion. :D
like Tiff says she loves all the books I've suggested her [A Long Way Down, The Perks of Being a Wallflower, Nick Hornby, Chuck Palahniuk, etc.]
and Kevin said he thought Running with Scissors, which I told him he should read, was a really good book.
and I made a few people watch the movies Wristcutters, Loveactually, and Charlie Bartlett and they all liked them !
I love that.
And you all probably knew that I LOOOOOOOOOOOVE SINGING.
love love love.
loooooooooooooooooooooove.
:]
Oh, since Calvin already knows this, I won't put this as my "fact you didn't know", but just so everyone else knows, I often find myself oddly attracted to homosexual guys -__________-
Which,
A.) is VERY weird. and creepy D: [and yes, if I've liked you, you can take that in offense, maybe it means you're too feminine ;D ...but yes, usually I like more feminine guys -_-]
B.) SUCKS, because if I continue to like gay dudes, I'd never be able to have any of them?!
C.) DOES NOT mean I like girls, as Calvin brought up as a possibility! Because I can't stand girls most of the time! Way too drama-prone and bitchy. I get along MUCH better with guys [considering my best friends a male..?], and not ever in my lifetime could be attracted to a girl, trust me >:|
examples [these are only celebrities]: Daniel Vosovic [so hotttt ;_;], Austin Scarlett [not hot, but I LOOOOVE his personality with a passion], and Mika [also extremely hot!].
But I'm thinking, maybe this is only because hot guys = gay or gay guys = hot. Usually. -_- Darn. What a waste, my mother always says. xD

fact you didn't know about me: As long as I can remember, I've never gotten a balloon on my birthday. Also, I love love love getting cards. Love them most out of any gift you could get me. I'd rather get a card and no gift than a gift with no card, very very honestly.

Two more days until "the big 1-5", as Kevin said :P
So younggg ;_;



The Sound of Music - The Sound of Music [Julie Andrews]
^this always gets stuck in my head when musicals come to mind.