miss you tonight.

& I don't want the world to see me,
`cause I don't think that they'd understand.

that's probably one of my favorite set of lyrics in the world.


My birthday's coming up this Wednesday! Finally 15! dslahlalkd
I don't feel like doing anything special for it though. I don't think I deserve it this year.
But people keep asking what I want, so I'll list stuff here so I can remember :]
-HATS. I LOVE HATS.
-OR SCARVES. <3
-any other accessories, like jewelry or leg/arm warmers, work too (:
-iPod case [i have a black 80 gb classic]
-camera case [I'm pretty sure you've all seen my camera]
-one of those hot/cold cups? I don't know what you call them. canisters? they usually hold like tea or coffee. I had one last year that i brought to schoool.
-pins! or a pinmaker?
-giftcards? [any art supply stores, Border's/Barne's&Noble's, Urban Outfitters, Forever 21, H&M, Delia's, Starbucks, whatever.]
-baking cookbook?
-sketchbooks?
-arizona green tea..? :D
-anything Beatles related, I supposee
-whatever you think I'd like? I think I trust your taste~
They're not too specific, as you can see. You don't have to get me anything, of course. But I do like gifts. :D
Though I USUALLY hate surprises.

I've been thinking a lot about my future lately.
Fashion Designer? Author? Journalist? Psychiatrist? Baker?
?!?!
Well, I'm taking fashion design, psychology and journalism next year, to figure out which I like best.
And from there, we'll see what I'll become :]
I'm so afraid of not becoming famous, because I always think, if I end up just some other stay-at-home-housewife, then in a hundred years or so, after I die, and after everyone I was associated with dies, no one will remember me. It'll be as if I never existed. And what's the point in existing at all, if one day, it'll seem I hadn't. I need to contribute and put my mark on the world. You know, that phrase- "To be forgotten is worse than death." And how true, that I'm so much more frightened of being lost in history, like so many other people have been, than I am of dying.
I have been sketching out a lot of garment designs lately, though. I think I'll compile a portfolio, in case I do decide to major in fashion, then I'll actually have something nice for my resume.

fact you didn't know about me: The strongest of my 5 senses is my taste :D

Fly Away - Lenny Kravitz
flyyy awayyyyyy.