every point of view has another angle.

Does the world seem grey with empty longing?
Wearing every shade of cynical.
And do you ever feel that
There is something missing?







I should be doing my algebra homework!
What's wrong with me?

So! Remember that day where I lost my jacket, planner, swimsuit and Samantha's jacket?
It was a day of epic fail; neverending fail.
And within exactly two weeks since then, everything fell right back into place.
Two days after that dreadful Thursday of December 4th, Mrs. Napollielo had my planner sitting up at the front of the room and I asked for it back and had it returned to me :]
Last Thursday, Coach Kwon said to me, "Guess what! Someone found your suit in the lost & found." and Chnar exclaimed, "I found it!" So I had a suit to wear for the second meet (and I also improved my time by three seconds and was the fastest in my lane for my relay!).
And yesterday, Herty told me Mr. Sedine asked his class if they knew who my jacket belonged to, so today I asked him and he said "I didn't find it, it's been sitting in my closet for three weeks!" And now I am wearing it.
As for Samantha, I never found her jacket...but she said she's getting a new one! Which she needed, anyway. That one was old and not warm enough at all, darn her. xD

How can things go so badly
And so well?

Ups
and
Downs.

This makes me feel quite...thankful. And happy.
And I shall celebrate my youth with you, Tyler. :]
And I will protect my magical fortresses from the ogres, for now, Jansen.
And I shall find Eric a Christmas gift and finish the rest of my Christmas shopping.
And I will return Samantha's jeans and Leah's sportswear ASAP.
And I shall buy bread for our finger sandwiches.
And I will improve my grades in both history and algebra.
And things will look up.
Even more than they are now.
& I'll be okay. :D


But I can't help but feel
and think...
and well-
know
that deep down inside
there is still
something

missing



i'm not here



i'm not there



i'm not anywhere









CLT: If you've ever seen maybe an older show or movie, do you know how sometimes during a flashback scene, there are several different ways to flashback? Of course, the classic, fade out to white and back in again with a misty cloudy white border, or there's the normal flashback with just the scene in different colors, or the quick flash to black, scene, black, scene and kind of clicking noises. Is this making any sense? And then there's the commonly used *image warps and morphs into blurred colorful waves and the waves straighten back out into the flashback image* while like, sparkly dream music plays?
...I suck at describing things.
But anyway! That wavelength flashback thing; that happens to me all the time. Especially when I'm reading, my vision starts waving back and forth and everything curves and squiggles and loses their shapes and I get a tad dizzy.
Gr. Does this even make any sense?!