bring corruption to all that you touch.

And our freedom's consuming itself.
What we've become;
It's contrary to what we want.
Take a bow.





For Christmas, I received:
-a turntable from my mother
-socks from my mother
-season 4 of the Twilight Zone from my mother
-an iPod case from my mother
-a phone chain from my mother
-$200 gift card to Barnes & Noble from my father
-$100 from my grandmother
-$100 from my aunt
-about 20 packs of gum from my brother
-a Beatles record & VHS from Jansen
-a Vy-Anh house from Tyler
-a panda scarf from Eric
-a black beanie from Leah
-"Fortune Telling Book of Dreams" from Kesiree
-a microphone shaped sponge from Erin
-a microphone shaped soap from Samantha
-a scarf, tea and teacup from Calvin & Tina
-a scarf from Tom
-a cup from Amy
-a Beatles poster type thing from Vincent
-a tiny music box which plays "Hey Jude" from Tiff
-a Chinese "peace" wall hanging from Alena
-a Chinese box & massaging balls from Evelina
For Christmas [so far- I still need to finish buying gifts], I gave:
-mix CDs to my mother
-a chess/checkers table to my brother
-a journal & candle to Liz
-a journal & candle to Leah, as well
-"The Lonesome Puppy" book to Samantha
-Gir [from Invader Zim] hair bows to Tyler
-chipped in for Sexy Slang game for Tom
-teal wallet & robot bows to Evelina
-"A Wolf At the Table" and lighting bolt earrings to Tiff
-necklace & perfume to Kesiree
-boxers & a hat to Calvin
-something to Anna which I can't name yet because I have to give it to her first
-boxers & socks to Tina
-a book of pick up lines to Vincent
-a bracelet I made to Jansen
-one of those little Urban Outiftter bamboozi collectibles to Eric
I still need to buy for Erin.
Yeah.


Anyway!
I love the feeling I get when people love the gifts I give them. :]
Samantha said she loved that book, it's amazing. I worried it wasn't like a useful type of gift. But she really did like it (: She was all, "THE BOOK!" Haha.
Tyler said the bows were so cute, and that she loved them.
Tom says the game's awesome, but then again, the game wasn't my idea xD
Kesiree was all "You got me the necklace?!" and I asked, "You did say you liked it, right?" and she goes "Yes! I love it, it's so pretty." And then she asked about the wrapped portion of her present, "Is this perfume? Because I've been running out of my pink one." I answered yes and she asked, "The orange one?!" and when I answered yes again she said thank you and hugged me (: And she put on the necklace right then and there.
Evelina said she'd just lost her wallet and needed a new one, and thanked me. I felt as if it was a "as-if-you-read-my-mind" moment.
Those words just brightened my days.
More!
The best yet was Jansen's. If you read his blog, he states he is thankful for the bracelet I gave him? :] At first I was worried that it didn't live up to what he bought me, because it didn't cost much. But he said it's like the best gift a friend could get him, or something. Reading that post of his just, it just made me so elated. My heart is so filled with happiness that he liked it so much.
You have no idea how much giving excites and fills me with this indescribable joy.
Thank you, Jansen. :D
I really wanted to say "thank you" after I read your blog, but I knew that wouldn't seem to make any sense if I had, haha.
He didn't show he liked it that much when I first gave it to him, but he put it on immediately and said he liked it, but I still worried it wasn't enough. But apparently it was! Yay!
And also!
Vincent said he loved the book and was reading lines out of it all night, that now they'd be his away messages. :D
& Calvin said he'd wear the hat & boxers for new years!
I LOVE THIS FEELING~
Updated!
My brother & I played a game of both chess & checkers :D
Tiff put on the earrings once she got them, and wore them the whole day and quite a few other days (:
Tina has worn the socks a few times now, Eric called the figurine cute, and Liz says she uses my candle every night.
And Leah might possibly use the journal I gave her as a journal/diary type thing and I've read the first entry :D
I with all my heart, 100% believe that nothing makes me happier than giving to others, and then recieving these reactions.


So, Kesiree gave me that book of dreams. It's like a dream decoder, basically.
And the night after it was given to me, I dreamt I was staying in a hotel, and in the lobby, there were a ton of attractions- like those in an amusement park, excluding rides. And one of them was a maze. A lifesized maze, but not like those hedge or corn ones. It's made of regular, off-white, plaster walls. It's maybe more than an acre large, and is surrounded by children's books which each contain different directions explaining how to reach different prizes and goals within the maze. They're colorful and simple and I remember what they look like very specifically. In the maze, there are traps and doors which will shut on you if you're not quick enough. Spikes and potholes and things that pop out of walls and such. I see people die in this maze. Crushed by the doors, mostly. And supposedly, it's for kids?
And then I have a second dream, where Vincent and I think Tina are with me, in a moonbounce, and somehow, Vincent like, takes control of the moonbounce and sends it sailing off into the air. And before I know it, we're in a moonbounce, soaring through the sky. Up high enough that there are clouds right before my eyes. It's nightime, maybe midnight, and nearly pitchdark with a strong breeze pressing against us- though not cold. Warm and windy. My favorite kind of weather, besides after-rain weather. He's steering us through the heavens, and I'm peacefully sitting on the floor of the moonbounce, almost meditating. While Tina's clutching onto the edge of the moonbounce, holding on for dear life with her legs dangling in the air. D:
But it's very nice. Tranquil. So much fun, because as you know, I've always wanted to fly....It's basically one of the best dreams I've had in a loooong time.
And then a third dream, but I don't remember much aside from being in a white room. And ____, whose name I'd prefer not to mention, keeps touching me- on the sides, the neck, the back...my face. And he tries to kiss me, but I move away, and don't let him. And he asks me why I keep avoiding him, and I say that I hate him.
So I looked in this "Book of Dreams" Kes gave me, and it says this:
There's no "maze" in the book, so I looked up...
LABYRINTH
To get lost in a labyrinth sugests that you must unravel a problem you brought upon yourself.
FLYING
To fly like a bird through the sky indicates that your efforts to achieve something beyond your capabilities will be futile.
NIGHT
A dream that takes place at night is not usually an advantageous sign. Expect challenges and setbacks.
CLOUDS
Dark, foreboding clouds forecast bad luck and sadness.
It also doesn't include "moonbounce," so I settled for...
BALLOON
A balloon is a symbol of unfulfilled expectations. Expect losses in your business.
KISS
To dodge a kiss indicates illness.

All terrible omens.
All bad signs.
It seems I should be expecting nothing good anytime soon.
Oh, and as for the illness thing. Oddly enough, I woke up sneezing. I sneezed at least five or six times in a row, and then had a runny, stuffy nose. How silly. xD

And then last night, I had a dream about swim. The team was at this gargantuous new pool, at where I remember the color pink being very prominent everywhere. Coach Kwon is being very demanding in putting me in more races than usual. Leah and I are laughing at one point. I'm only naming the brief, random bits which I recall. About twenty people are able to dive in at once, that's how big the pool is. It has that many lanes. Splashes...diving in...the rush. I don't remember the order of events or anything very significant particularly. I remember being at a random person's house- probably a pasta dinner...hm.
Anyway. In the book:
POOL
Festive tmes ahead if you dream of swimming in a pool.

THUS!
We have to do something for New Years, you guys :)




CLT: I love the concept of- if you give a group of people one thing, each of them will make something different of it.
Don't get what I mean? Two quotes as examples:
"If I give you a recipe and I give five people the same recipe, I will have different dishes on the table." -Jacques Pepin
"You are all reading the same book, and to get all these different representations of the image described- That's amazing." -Mrs. Napollielo