i'm on my way.

Things are shaping up to be pretty odd;
Little deaths in musical beds,
So it seems I'm someone I've never met.


HELLO AGAIN. :]
Ah, well calvin nags me to recreate my blog, so here it is.
If you were wondering (which you most likely weren't), the reason I deleted my blog last time is because when I have a blog, it distracts me from writing in my journal. I wouldn't mind if I didn't prefer writing in my journal though, because i have less restrictions in my journal, because only certain people read it..whereas anyone could see my blog, and I am kept from letting everything out. D: But I will try to balance it out.
Also, I guess i was feeling very down and fed up with the world, and when that happens, I feel a need to do something big that I can't go back on. And deleting all the writing I've put into this blog would qualify (which I now regret, because that meant forever losing all the things I was hoping to save ;_;). And my indecisiveness causes my head to ache when I debate over whether or not I should tell everyone certain things or I should just keep them to myself. And that happens a lot.
GR. I WANT MY OLD POSTS BACK -_-
Stupid vyanh.
Anyway! Last thing: if you recall, when I first started this blog, I stated that I always create blogs and delete them soon after? Well, yeah. Here's proof. Haha, there are too many reasons that I do this for. My indecisiveness, being one. And well, I always keep things in because I feel like an annoyance and an attention whore if I complain and bring my problems up. But on the other hand, when I don't let things out for a long period of time, I need even more to vent in the long-run.
Do you get what I'm saying?
Probably not.
Sometimes I worry that the way my mind works will only ever make sense to me.

Another reason I don't like blogging;
I write too much. Even if I have very little on my mind, I have a way of ranting on and on and on and expanding my thoughts out into endless speeches and well, I can't control myself. I'm not a good writer unless I use more space than required. In projects and essays, I always write way too much, and have serious trouble cutting down the size of my pieces.
See already, this is quite a long post D:

With all my old posts losttt~
I guess it's back to the drawing board. (that's how the phrase goes, right?)

SO, A LOT'S CHANGED SINCE LAST TIME WE SPOKE.
Oh dear.
haha, wellllllll...
In case you didn't know, lately I've been a thousand times happier and I feel so free & comfortable.
Everything's just been so amazing.
Life's good.
Life's great.
I'm great.
:D

You may know why ;D
or you might not.
You're welcome to ask if you'd like ^^

Lalalalalala
The only thing I'm missing now is confidence!
So, if i just lose a little weight...
and then everything will be near perfect :3
GAH. THAT FACE.

OOOOKAY,
I'll tune in latoooorz.
Bounce - Tune Up!
(I found the song, Anna! :D)

...My stomach's acting up again.
I think it's Texas.