Merrrrry Christmas :D

I love Christmas! The spirit, the music, the joyyy. <3
I just finished watching Elf, and it got me in an even more Christmas-y mood. I want to go caroling and watch movies and eat holiday foods, guys! We should do this tomorrow. I'll bring music and movies, mebbe? And I'm making that yule log cake once I finish this post~
Unfortunately, I didn't feel our Secret Santa was very Christmas-spirited though ): The food wasn't Christmas-y. There was no Christmas music. The only Christmas-like thing was the gift exchange, and Calvin says Christmas shouldn't be materialistic and all about the gifts. We played Rock Band most of the night xD
I re-read my Christmas post from last year, and decided I should make one every year! :D I listed what I recieved and what I gave, and most importantly, people's reactions to the gifts I gave them! I absolutely adore Christmas shopping, and even more so adore it when people love what I got them~ I believe I'm a fairly good gift-finder/chooser/giver. Tom asked me for advice when he didn't know what to buy for someone in his family and I helped and he said I was the perfect person to ask, hooray!

Gifts I have/will recieve [so far...I shall add on after Christmas is over]:
-Boots from my brother
-12.1 mp Sony Cyber-shot camera [blue!] from my mother
-HP Elitebook laptop from my father
-$50 from my uncle
-$50 from my grandmother
-$300 from my aunt & her boyfriend
-Cucumber Melon lotion & hand sanitizer from Tom
-Moonlight path body collection from Liz
-Original PostSecret book from Amy

^Post Secret book = one of my new favorite gifts. I now have three favorite gifts ever; the other two are the Hey Jude music box from Tiffany and the Glee poster from Sam. The Post Secret book is because I love it so much, the music box is because it's very sentimental and dear to me, and the Glee poster is because I feel like that is one of the most generous and sweetest things anyone's ever done for me...so selfless :)
And I'm frustrated about the excess of lotion xD Liz was my secret santa, btw. But I've decided to never ask for toiletries again ever in my life. I can buy my own toiletries. I should only ask for necessities and/or sentimental gifts. At least they got different scents? xD

Gifts I have/will give [once again, I will add on more later]:
-Swarovski white rocking flower crystal to Mother
-Swarovski red rocking flower crystal to Grandmother
-Some Atlantis Lego set to Brother
-Self-Crocheted scarf, 2 gb pink USB, hot chocolate, returned V for Vendetta & coupons [to paint his room, go with him to DC, cook him food & watch V for Vendetta with him, and have a heated discussion with him over hot chocolate] to Reggie
-An Awesome Book to Samantha
-Pocket Posh Crosswords to Tiffany
-Self-designed wallet to Tom
-Collected menus to Vincent
-Get High Now to Liz
-Notebook & bag-like thing to Evelina
-Three books to Amy
-Desk lamp to Patu
-Cupcake candle to Alina

Yes! :D
So regarding reactions, the best by far is Reggie's. I was his Secret Santa, which is why I gave him more than anyone else. And I put the most effort in his gift :D When it was my turn, I pulled out his gift and handed it to him, and he was like, "What?!" and I'm like, "I know, right?" And he looked in the bag and asked, "ALL of these are for me?" And then he went off into like, the corner of the room, sitting on Vince's piano chair in seclusion, and opened up his gift all alone. So after opening it, he comes back and hugs me, and he says "You did the one thing I thought would never happen to me" or something. And he doesn't speak for like, half an hour. And then he disappears from the room quite a while. And when he comes back, I ask him, "What's wrong? I don't like your reaction to my gift!" And he just says "No, I'm just speechless! AND I'M NEVER SPEECHLESS. You've defeated me, woman!" And he continues saying things like "This is so surreal" or "I'm baffled," "I'm so confused!" "It still hasn't sunk in..." Later, he was all, "We need to talk. One on one, face to face." Haha, and then he sent me a text saying that it was so surreal and he was hoping he could transpire it into a letter. And then another text saying that since my gift was so good, he would try to give me a gift that is better or at least on par. And then his AIM profile today was "Still speechless [thanks to someone *cough cough*]" or something like that, and then his away messages were "Making a gift" and "So confused I hate women" or something like that. HOW SILLY. I'm glad I made such a fascinating impact though :)
Samantha ran up to me and hugged me really hard...I think it was after she read her card. I think everyone enjoyed my cards quite a bit? Patu and Amy both told me "I like your card!" Because basically I listed people's best traits in each of their cards :D I wanted to make you all feel better about yourselves ^^ I think it's important to be happy with one's self. And everyone was looking through Sam's book. And Patu left me a Facebook comment saying she liked the lamp. And Amy began reading on of her books right there, and gave me a hug~
And then Tiffany was like, "I love you, Vy-Anh! I'm going to finish this whole book in like, a day!" And then she began doing it and almost finished a crossword in a few minutes xDD That smarty-pants, her~
And then Tom was like, "This is so cool! Time to throw out my old wallet!" And then everyone was looking through it and agreed on it's coolness. And they all found it hilarious that I drew a dick in it [as Calvin told me to] xD
And then Vincent was like, "I know what this is!" before he opened it. And then after, "Oh my god, there's so many!" and he gave me a hug. He said, "I can put them up on my wall now, because I have enough!" And Leo was like "Wow, this makes my gift look bad. I gave him the Outback Steakhouse menu" hahaha.
And then Liz was like "Yayyyy! Thank youuu I wanted this so much. I'm going to do every single thing in this book! " And then she tried out something right there with Leo :P
And then Alina was like, "I love you, Vy-Anh! This is so cuteee!"
But Evelina didn't have much of a reaction. Boo, she's the only one xD Then again, she was one of the people I had no idea what to get...so I just picked out something random D:
OTHERWISE. THERE WERE SOME GOOD REACTIONS. I love seeing people happy because of me. I even wrote down last night, when I got home, "Knowing you've made someone else happier is the best feeling in the world." Seeing and hearing all this just made me want to smile all night longgg. Though that would have been creepy. But I probably smiled too much anyway xD My favorite thing about Christmas is seeing that I made so many people smile in one dayyy. I love making people smile. I love smiles. I LOVE HAPPINESS.
HAPPINESS IS THE MOST WONDERFUL GIFT IN THE WORLDDDDD
Happy happy happy Vy-Anh~!

***edit***
Tiff - "I've finised 2 crosswords so far ;D"
Sam - "I love inspirational kiddie books. Thanks, Vy-Anh. :) <3"
Tom - "i really loved the wallet, it was so wonderful."
Reading all three of these things brought a smile to my face, once again <3

To save me from tears.

I keep my distance,
But you still catch my eye.
Tell me baby,
Do you recognize me?

Now I know
What a fool I've been;
But if you kissed me now,
I know you'd fool me again.



Last Christmas is absolutely my favorite Christmas song.
I'm sitting in the school library. I hate one of the ladies who works here. She always comes around and yells at me for eating food and using headphones and writing blogs >:| Even though I'm not supposed to, LOL. But none of the other three ladies who work here ever notice! -_- She's just too...what's the word that means you're too paranoid and check up on things more than you have to?
La da dum. I think I should try writing a blog everyday again. But that never seems to work out. xD We'll see how it goes this time. In fashion today, we were using tablets, and it was really nice because I love tablets, to the point where I hate mice, and would rather use a tablet pen anyday. So it was easier to maneuver :D
I'm taking some practice permit tests, because I know I'll fail a third time [and have to take drivers' ed all over again, ah!] if I don't study hard, for once xD Why do I suck at rules and regulations? I almost didn't pass Driver's Ed the first time...and I got a D on my final, lol. Failll- maybe I shouldn't drive. Maybe it's a sign that I'll be a miserable driver and kill us all O_O
Hmmmmmmmmm you know. There's this thing about the people here [at South Lakes]. I think they're kind of dumb :X Like reading their writing makes me criiiiiiinge. So bad D: And they make stupid jokes. That aren't funny. Like the other day, this girl at my table was like "You know how Taco Bell has those black tacos now? I didn't know black people had their own taco!" and the whole table cracked up in laughter. Except me. Because it wasn't funny. I don't even think it was racist. I just think it made no sense whatsoever xD
Bleh. I miss Falls Church more than I can explain in words ;_; Everytime I zone back into reality, I realize I'm in some strange new world where I feel like a freakin' foreigner. And I just want to go home. I feel lost and alone. And glimpses of you guys appear and disappear in seconds, and everytime the past is brought up, I want to hurt, but this happens so much that I've gotten used to it. I've forgotten how to be in emotional pain.

Feeling a miracle would happen.

For here you are,
And what was just a world
Is a star
Tonight.

My dreams have been completely out of control lately.
Here's some recent ones:

-I'm standing in line at a restaurant, and there's a group of friends standing in front of me. One of them turns around and I realize it's Kevin McHale omg :3 And he's holding a Lemon Tea Vitamin Water in his hand, so I say "Oh my goodness, where did you get that?! It's my favorite!" And he exclaims, "Yeah, it's my favorite too!" So I say "But I can never find itt, where'd you get it?" And he just says "Seriouslyy...but I don't know where I got it." And then we laugh and he tells me "You know...you have a very beautiful, uh, aura." xD But then he sits down in Jenna Ushkowitz lap ): And her legs are full of cellulite O_O [Though probably not in real life...hopefully not xP]
-My family is having a reunion get-together. My dad's girlfriend decides to work up the guts to go and meet my mother. She walks in to the room, and for some reason my mom is white...with long, curly red hair xD And my mother seems ecstatic to meet her, screaming "It's so nice to meet you!" and giving her a hug. Which is strange. Then, heart-wrenched by this event, all of my uncles begin admitting to my aunts that they've cheated, and they all get into arguments and decide to divorce. The entire time, I am filming the reunion, and suddenly all of the children of the family been crying their eyes out...
-I attend the Kilimanjaro Safari at Walt Disney World's Animal Kingdom, which is the main attraction there. In real life, Mrs. Napoliello told us we all have to go see it if we had the chance last year . In the dream, when I go, all of the animals are fake, plastic replicas.
-A ton of us [my actual friends] are hanging out in some metropolitan area, such as Crystal City or Washington D.C. I'm laying down on a bench. Okay, so in real life, there's a group of guys I'm not too fond of because I think they're arrogant and manwhore-ish. Three that I can think of off the top of my head are Ananta, JJ, and Phillip. I can't remember which one of these was in the dream, but one of them decides they like me, and lays down on top of me. Which is weird. And Awkward. Because I'm laying on my back, and they're laying on their side on top of me, for some reason xD And Anna [Huynh] decides to be mean and like, drops a tennis ball on his penis xD And for some reason, he ejaculates because of this? And so now both him and me are soaked in sperm, wtf -_- But then he gets up, angry, and goes to have a drink. Anna and some others decide to get him REALLY drunk, strip him down to only a tucked-in T-shirt & his boxers, and have him stroll around the area half-naked and sperm-soaked. Everyone's laughing. So embarassing for him. D:
-Me and a couple friends win a trip to meet the Glee cast and see them perform. We're drinking lemonade slushies and having a little dinner party. I'm sitting next to Kevin McHale and super happy :3 Then, before they go to perform, he and Lea Michele give eachother a few pecks on the cheek and lips D: And they're about to perform a song about lemonade slushies, but Diana Agron orders them not to.
-I'm on vacation with my family in Florida when all of a sudden Calvin calls and tells me "You're going to find yourself in a near-death situation, but Patu is going to save your life." And then he hangs up. For some reason, Patu bursts in and pushes me into a closet. I peek through a crack in the door and see a blinding white flash and everything changes into infrared colors. This happens again and again. In other words, waves of radiation are being cast throughout the city. In real life, hiding in a closet probably wouldn't save my life in this situation, but in my dream, it did. Thank you, Patu xD
-I'm walking through a school-like building when I see Calvin, being suffocated by this old Chinese lady, who claims to me she's his mother. I'm like, "What? No way- I've seen his mother before." And she just hugs him and cries. He tells me that she might actually be his mother, that he's been hiding from me the fact that he was seperated from his real mother at birth and adopted by the woman who I believed to be his mother up until now. And then he begins crying. I start crying too, and I walk away to find Vickie, who admits that she knew about this, and I cry even more when I know that he told her but not me, and then Vickie and Calvin and I all hug in tears..D:

So that's everything I remember right now. Strange stuff. What could it all mean? Perhaps I shall look in my dream decoder.

WHY AM I POSTING ON BLOGGER?!

Because I feel like it. I'm tired of Tumblr and Xanga atm. They don't feel right. This feels right. Sort of. Aside from the fact that people can see this, it feels alright. But I don't expect anyone aside from maybe Calvin and/or Sam to see this, I think?
HEY SO SOME THOUGHTS
THAT I WAS THINKING
JUST NOW
...
Why are the Elfster wishlists so complicated? Everyone's insulting them with "too vague!" or "too specific!" nonsense...or "this sucks," "over the spending limit," "doesn't cost money" crap. xD Why don't we all just fill our wishlists with reasonable things and not complain D:
I like buying gifts for everyone, but I only want to spend $5 per person, so that I don't spending over $150 or less on gifts, but everyone's wishlist items are over 5 >.>
Was there something I wanted to write about?
Hm. I think it was love. I've been thinking a lot about love. Like, you have no idea how much of a hopeless romantic I am. I'm actually nearly ALWAYS thinking about love. And soulmates. And marriage. And like wtf, I'm only 16, right? But it's always on my mind for some reason. I like to dream up conversations with whoever I imagine myself being with. I'm really weird ): I don't know if I've stated this before, but Tiffany once said that Tom was too desperate for a girlfriend, but I'm on the same boat as him. I just want not to be alone anymore, so badly. ALMOST THREE YEARS. I'm going to be very sad if I'm still without romantic interests by the end of junior year xD Grrrrr how do other people manage this? I need to learn to be more INDEPENDENT. Like Zooey Deschanel in 500 Days of Summer! She didn't even believe in relationships. I should try to be a little like her. OR at least stop dreaming of this storybook fairytale stuff. Oh my goodness, watching the AMAZING firework show at the Disney Magic Kingdom Castle like made me ten years younger. I felt like a little girl, 100% believing in the voice over saying, "If you just believe, all your dreams and wishes will come true!" Oh dear. I'M SO PATHETIC AND DESPERATEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEee SAVE ME
Loooooove. One of my life goals in my life goal journal is "fall in love." Have I been in love? Nah. I don't know. Hm...I came up with a whole description of what I think love is the other day. It sounds corny if I spell it out for you. This whole thing is corny. =_=
So I'm having a fairly good time in Florida. How are you guys doing? Hope your Thanksgiving was enjoyable. I've visited all the parks in Disney World. In fact, I was just telling Calvin about how I want a ton of us to go there next year, as a graduation road trip...I'm staying in this sweet villa, with a bedroom w/ a queen size bed, a living room w/ two couches that fold out into two full size beds, a kitchen with a fridge, dishwasher, microwave and stove-top oven, and a dining table, a television in the living room and a television in the bedroom, along with a full bathroom w/ a linen closet, a walk-in closet in the bedroom, and a washing machine and dryer for clothes. We could rent one out for like $500 for one week, divided among maybe ten of us would only be $50 per person :D And Disney tickets are like $200-$250ish if you want to stay maybe 3-7 days. So start saving up if you want to go! I think this would be hella fun! It'd be like living together for a week. And we'd drive ten hours to save $ on plane tickets and car rentals. I'll construct a whole game plan when it's not so far down the road.
IT WILL BE FUN :D

HAH. I just went back and read like ten of my old blogs. THEY'RE SO MUCH FUN TO READ. My writing can be pretty delicious, tehe xD I'm definitely going to start blogging a lot on here again :)



CLT: I saw New Moon, right? I'm team Jacob for sure. LOL. HE ALSO MAKES SO MUCH MORE SENSE.
Edward:
-cold
-pale
-sparkly
-wants to kill her/drink her blood
-tried to leave her/break up with her
-caused her this hole-in-chest sensation
-caused her to nearly kill herself several times
-poses life-threatening situations
-will stay 17 when she's an old lady
-requires losing your soul to stay with forever
-Robert Pattison is awkward and creepy
Jacob:
-warm
-cute
-not sparkly
-protective
-sweet
-cute
-has saved her life
-will live as long as she does
-does not wish to kill her/drink her blood
-does not pose life-threatening situations
-Taylor Lautner is cuteeeeeeeeeeeee :3
If you read my tumblr, I posted a quote from the movie by Charlie, Bella's dad, stating "Sometimes you have to learn to love what's good for you." I love this quote mostly because I feel like I can relate to it. And also because Stephanie Meyer didn't write it.

have i found you?

One of my favorite songs is: Flightless Bird, American Mouth - Iron & Wine
It will soothe you to sleep. It's an absolutely amazing tune and he has the most brilliant voice.
One thing though:
...The lyrics are a bit...strange.

I was a quick, wet boy diving too deep for coins-
All of your street light eyes wide of my plastic toys.
Then when the cops closed the fair, I cut my long, baby hair
Stole me a dog-eared map and called for you everywhere.
Have I found you?
Flightless bird, jealous, weeping, or lost you American mouth-
Big pill looming.
Now I'm a fat house cat nursing my sore blunt tongue
Watching the warm poison rats crawl through the white fence cracks
Pissing on magazine photos; those fishing lures
Thrown in the cold and clean blood of Christ mountain stream.
Have I found you?
Flightless bird, grounded, bleeding, or lost you American mouth-
Big pill stuck going down.

I don't know about you- maybe there's some deep, metaphorical, hidden and sentimental meaning, but I can't see it. So I got bored and wrote some of my own lyrics. They're cheesy, but understandable. Like most song lyrics are. :D

I was engulfed by you, felt high off your sweet perfume;
With flowers in place of eyes, you watched from across the room.
And we were the perfect pair, till suddenly you weren’t there,
So I stole me a dog-eared map and called for you everywhere.
Have I found you?
Flightless bird, grounded, weeping, or lost you, American mouth-
Hiding, looming
Now when my search was done, your cheeks wore a thousand tears.
I whispered “You are the one” as we waded in Autumn sun
Here in this thundering sea these words are a harmony-
Your voice soft as butter cream; my love cries mountain streams.
Have I found you?
Flightless bird, free now, singing, or lost you, American mouth-
Out here, liberating

I kept some stuff the same because it was so good. But yeah. Hooray :D

when did we start this crazy game?

When's the last time that we kissed good night?
I wanna know who you're laughing with;
I wanna know that there's more than this.
But all in all, it's all the same.
It goes on and on...






Hello! I'm not sure if anyone reads my blogger anymore, I would assume if you read either my blogger or tumblr, you'd read the tumblr since I update there more. Regardless...

I watched this show called "The Fashion Show" yesterday [lame]. And at the beginning of the show, this man Merlin and a girl were arguing, and he ends up saying like, "Male domination bitch. Get it." And near the very end of the show, she looks very upset when they win, and the judges ask why she's scowling. She says, "Well, it's just because he told me to shut up because of male domination." And he responds to this with "What? You misunderstood me. You must've heard me wrong. That's not what I meant." These are the people that I get very close to hating. So I hope none of you ever dare tell me you didn't say something when you did.

Fact: Humans are flawed. Very flawed.
Jansen said to me once that I shouldn't see flaws in people, but I see flaws in everyone. They're undeniably everywhere to be found! But he says "How can a person's way of living be a flaw?"
Still wrong.
And everyone else in the world doesn't say this, per se, but they imply it and display it through their actions. People that do know the flaws in humans lose respect for them. They distrust them, dislike them, speak slander of them, quarrel with them, grow angry at them.
But they're wrong as well.
The truth is, everyone in the world is full of endless countless flaws, and the other truth is that we have to accept this. All this drama is caused by people's actions, which for the most part, is caused by them as a person. And their flaws. And we should be able to understand that maybe they don't mean it or maybe we're taking it the wrong way or maybe it isn't that much of a deal. We should be big enough people to realize our own flaws and accept everyone else's as well.
No one should try to change the way anyone else is and they shouldn't be able to criticize their actions and expect them to do what they want them to do. I mean, this excludes like, the act of murdering and such.

Something I saw on Kesiree and Erin's tumblrs inspired me. It's something I'd like to do. So now I shall copy them.

Dear You,
You need to think before you act. And think about what you've done. No one's mad at you. You're taking things too seriously. But I'll admit you have made some massive mistakes. Brutal honesty isn't the best way to go, but lying to your close friends isn't either. Find a balance. It's never all or nothing. It's as if we can't have any relationship other than "really close" or "never talking." All this stuff that's going on- don't blame this on yourself. Don't blame it on others, either. And don't leave us. Believe it or not, everyone in this group still needs you. I know I do.

Dear You,
-You might be one of the people that tries to change what they've previously said [as I discussed earlier]. You're drawing out drama from where it doesn't exist. Bringing out problems with no need for them. This bothers me. Stop it. Ever heard the phrase, "Takes a hypocrite to know a hypocrite?" [it's something John Lennon said] Well, it's true. And highly, highly applies to you. The way you act and things you do irk a large majority of people. I hate hearing them talk behind your back, but I find it somewhat understandable. I love you but you can be hateable.

Dear You,
I can't believe you. I can't believe you would do this. After everything. Everything that I knew you as. You basically threw a lot of it away. You were the one person that wasn't like everyone else, to me. You were like a role model or a hero. I looked up to you and I wanted to change because seeing you, I knew [or thought I did] that it wasn't necessary to be that way. And then you went and did this and all I can say is wow. My disappointment lies in everyone else too, for letting this happen. I thought maybe they'd feel the same way about you. Apparently not.

Dear You,
You frustrate me more than most people do. Low self-esteem is not even just a problem with you, it's as if you have a disorder. You always say you think the world is out to get you, that everyone's conspiring against you, but you're dead wrong. People freaking love you. They adore you. So shut up about that crap. And I think we disagree/argue too much. I'm not sure why. I'm trying to stop doing that. Maybe if we don't even argue much, it seems like it to me because I rarely argue with anyone. Yeah, so I never want to hear you say anything negative about yourself, damn it.

Dear You,
You're really biased. I'll never admit it to you, but you are. Your definition of things are changed based on what you do or don't like, pretty much. In fact, you have a lot of definition problems. Like "love." You use that word too loosely. Even if you don't think so. You'd probably deny all this, because you always deny any flaws I can mention about you, even when you ask me to tell you your flaws so that you can be a better person. You're very compassionate and caring, but don't lose sight of the world around you. Being more self-serving would also be good for you.

Dear You,
I'm not trying to justify it, but the reason that person has issues with you is because you come off as having it all. I don't feel the same way as her, but I want to explain it. You have a lot that other people envy, and you don't brag, but I've seen you bring up things not everyone wants to hear without being asked once or twice. It kind of irks me too. Because to me, you're amazing. You are the closest to perfect anyone gets. But maybe that's just because I don't know certain things about you, since we don't seem to talk as much anymore.

Dear You,
I used to have plenty of problems with you, but not as much lately. I absolutely despise it when you bring up things that don't need to be brought up. Like personal issues that you mention slightly and then don't go into depth with or upsetting comments that make me feel bad, or stupid or useless. You think you've changed but in my opinion, you really haven't at all. You're stubborn beyond belief to a point where I don't even know how to speak to you or convince you of pure and utter truth. You're hypocritical, you expect too much, and you need to grow up.

Dear You,
You're always saying you have no one to talk to, but ever think maybe it's because you don't speak up? You even said one of your closest friends barely knows you. How can you let that happen? I've told you I'm here if you need to talk countless times, but you rarely talk to me and then you complain you have no one to talk to. Sigh. What bothers me about you is that you're always disagreeing with what people say. You have this smirk about your face and stand-offish tone about your voice that actually kind of scares me, come to think of it. Always trying to be correct.

Well, I think the point of these is to not tell the people you're talking to which ones they are. So yeah, I don't plan on telling anyone (:
Re-reading this, I probably sound like a big hypocrite, hahaha.

Don't you dare say that I'm "taking this out on all males" because of you.
I even said it's been something I've thought for a while.
As if you're the only guy who does this;
All guys do, and they always have!
As if it's all because of "your mistakes."
Arrogant.
You're not the only one.
If you think about it, it's not that hard to figure out what "girls" are getting mad at you for;
I never even said I was mad at you.
I was just ranting about guys in general, because they can be jerks.
Why did you have to take it directly towards you
& think that you're the sole reason for my thoughts
Because that's not true.
How self-centered.

[I'm sorry I'm so mean]